Google announced on Feb 1, 2016, it reached 1 billion Monthly Active Users (MAUs). Immediately, I thought of Facebook. Sorry, Google, I mean no disregard to Gmail. I am an avid Gmail user. I even have multiple accounts. When I thought about the sheer number of e-mails 1 billion users may generate, I instantly thought about friends. Facebook simply has the vernacular cornered on the use of the term friends. So, I ran a Google search to find out how many MAUs Facebook reports. Facebook reported it has 1.59 billion MAUs on January 27, 2016. I could not help but wonder, “How many friends does a person really need?”
Have you ever experienced NOT finding your luggage at Baggage Claim? Anger and anxiety set it. You ask yourself, “NOW what?!” or “Why me? or “Why now?”. You had plans. You knew exactly what and how things were supposed to happen. This was not one of the things that was supposed to happen.
I have been learning about writing and storytelling by going to writing courses, workshops and conference for the last several years. I have had the privilege to work with great writers and mentors along my […]
Sadness is a super important thing not to be ashamed about but to include in our lives. One of the bigger problems with sadness or depression is there’s so much shame around it. If you […]
The pain and stress and anger and sadness and loneliness and frustration and fear and cravings and irritations that we will experience today … they are made up. We can let them go as easily as they arise. They are unnecessary, if we realize that we’ve created them for no good reason. Instead, see the beauty in every moment. In every person’s so human actions. In our own frailties and failures.
My experience of venturing into the world of online blogging and social media has felt much like the experience of going to my first dance. I worried about whether or not my site on WordPress would have the right look and feel. Is my dress the right color and length? Will my dress be on trend or out of style? I spent weeks trying to decide on a WordPress theme, then a few more weeks customizing my chosen theme, Kiore Moana. If my WordPress site could talk, it would say, “I’m wearing Kiore Moana, a design by Elmastudio,” as it scrolled up and down enthusiastically. But, would anyone be watching? My site would imagine being asked, “Rinconez. What an interesting name. What does it mean?”
On Twitter, I worried about whether or not I would know the right protocol. Would I know the right dance steps? Would I be able to follow along to the latest line dance? What if no one wanted to dance with me? At first, I was terrified. Actually, I was more than terrified. I felt I was always fighting a combination of apprehension and fear mixed with excitement. I started to follow other writers on Twitter and found the writing community on Twitter to be very welcoming. I read their Tweets, re-Tweeted, starred my favorite Tweets, even Tweeted myself, but I still did not feel like I deserved to be part of the writing community, not even after starting my own site on WordPress, not even after my moments alone, writing, letting the stories of the characters in my head reveal themselves on paper. I could not bring myself to consider myself a “real writer“.
The truth is I have been fighting my
“Imposter Syndrome” as a writer.